Basketball is the best!

I am an avid fan of basketball games. Even though I am a girl, still I love watching it. Everytime there will be a game of my favorite team, I can't dare to miss it. But between NBA and PBA, I watch mostly PBA. Watching basketball games really made me alive. I can fell the intense and the thrill of the game. If only I can watch it live, I will really do it.

My favorite basketball player..!

Anthony Helterbrand (born on October 14, 1976 in San Juan, Metro Manila, Philippines), better known as Jayjay Helterbrand, is a Filipino professional basketball player in the Philippine Basketball Association for the Barangay Ginebra Kings. Known by many as Helter Skelter, he is also known, along with backcourt tandem Mark Caguioa, as one-half of the so-called, The Fast and the Furious.

Position
Guard

Height
5 ft 11 in (1.80 m)
Weight
170 lb (77.1 kg)
League
Philippine Basketball Association (PBA)
Team
Barangay Ginebra Kings
Born
October 14, 1976 (1976-10-14) (age 31)Novaliches, Quezon City, Philippines
Nationality
Philippines
College
Kentucky State University
Draft
Sign as a Free Agent, 2000Barangay Ginebra Kings
Pro career
2000–present
Awards
PBA Philippine Cup Finals MVP (2006), Sultan Cup in Brunei MVP (2005) ,Comeback Player of the Year (2004), PBA Mr. Quality Minutes (2003)

Mark Anthony Caguioa (born on November 19, 1979 in San Juan, Metro Manila, Philippines) is a Filipino professional basketball player in the Philippine Basketball Association (PBA). He plays for the Barangay Ginebra Kings, although he is currently on leave from the team due to his playing commitments to the Philippine national team. Known by many as The Spark, he is also known, along with backcourt tandem Jayjay Helterbrand, as one-half of the so-called, The Fast and the Furious.

Position
Point Guard, Shooting Guard
Height
6 ft 1 in (1.85 m)
Weight
180 lb (81.6 kg)
League
Philippine Basketball Association (PBA),
Team
Barangay Ginebra Kings
Born
November 19, 1979 (1979-11-19) (age 28)San Juan, Metro Manila, Philippines
Nationality
Filipino
College
Glendale Comm. Coll., California
Draft
3rd overall, 2001Barangay Ginebra Kings
Pro career
2001–present
Awards
*Rookie of the Year (2001)
PBA Mr. Quality Minutes (2001), PBA Mythical Second Team (2005)
PBA Mythical Second Team (2006)
FIBA Asia Club Championship Mythical Ten Selection (2007)

Awards and Records
1999 Eagle Rock Most Valuable Player of the Year
2000 Glendale Community College 1st Mythical Team Member
2001 Rookie of the Year
2001 Mr. Quality Minutes
2004 Mythical Second Team Member
2005 Mythical Second Team Member
2005 Statistical leader
2006 PBA Scoring Champion
2007 Best Player of the Conference (All Filipino Cup)
2007 Philippine National Team Member
2007 PSA major awardee (professional basketball ranks)
2007 William Jones Cup Mythical Five Selection (2007)
2007 FIBA Asia Club Championship Mythical Ten Selection
2007 Member, PBA 5,000-point club
3x PBA Scoring Champion
2004 Fiesta Conference, 2004-2005 Philippines Cup, 2006-2007 Philippine Cup champion

Loving without assurance

You're a stranger when I met you

I don't even got a clue about you

But I don't understand why my skies are blue

Everytime that I will see you

Your smile makes me froze for a while

Your eyes tells me that you don't lie

I can hear you're voice even a thousand miles

That causes me to fly so high

I want to be with you

Gives you everything I can

I want to comfort you

And gives you joy when you're sad

I dont know what to do when you're around

When you talked to me, my heart bounds

I just keep my feet on the ground

I don't want myself to wake up and nothing to be found

I adore you but you dont know it

I admire you but I choose to hide it

I almost like you but you like someone else

And now I already love you, I don't know if you do too

LiviNg aLOne...

Have you wake up in the morning finding yourself that your alone in your house?

Have you eat your breakfast without someone you can share with?

Are you deaf with silence?

Or did you feel the emptiness in your heart?

Is living by yourself makes your life bright, exciting and happy?

Life is cruel. We experienced different things as days goes by. Develop something as our travel continues to flow. We may not get easily what we want but we can achieve it in some directions and in the right time. Obstacles made us more stronger and develop our fighting spirit. But did you think w3e can make it by our own self?

For me, NO! The world is so big for us to meet people, meet friends. We cannot live by our own.

Our life will be dark without the people around us. The people who is special to us and in our heart. Life will be easy to manage because of them, inspiring us to give our best. Lying down without no one you can talk to and lean on is the same as sleeping forever without wanting to wake up again. Your life do not have the color, the music, excitement and happiness. Can you imagine? Your doing something just for yourself. But if you get waht you desired for, would it make you the happiest person in the world? Oh! Come on.. You will be haooy but you can really feel that there's something missing. A part of you that maybe stolen from you or is temporary missing. Living alone is miserable. It is much like a prisoner on your own jail.

It's our choice and we have a lot of chance to do it. Just remember, "No man is an island"

So, don't live by yourself. Live also for others.

coPing uP..

In my life, I experienced something that I can't easily forget. It is like a tattoo on my body that until now, I can't cope up. It is loving a person who loves you before but now, it seems that you are nothing to him. Loving someone can cause you to sacrifice everything. That person is the only person who made me cry hard. I thought I am strong enough to face the reality but, I am wrong.

Everytime I look at that person, I think I am facing the biggest regret im my life. I try to hide my feelings but I am not good in it. A lot of my friends told me that he is not deserve for my tears. But they just don't understand me. It's very hard for me to accept the fact that it just end up like that. But the most painful for me is when he easily found a new one to replace me. It seems that he got an amnesia and forgot everything. I thought I can easily get over him but as days goes by it grows deeper. I try to ignore his presence but still I can't pretend. Everytime his around, I can't control myself not to give a glimpse to him. I know that I can't back the past but I just hope that atleast we will be friends after all that happened between the two of us.a

How many times I try to smile at him when we cross paths but I can feel his coldness. His actions are telling me that he don't need me or even just a single friendship.

Until now, everytime I see him, I just end up staring at him. Im just trying to ignore and continue mylife without him.

Now, I can say that Im getting used to it. We do have a different lives now. He can do what he want and I can do what I want.

Maybe, our friendship cannot be brought back again. But still I am hoping because friendship really means a lot to me.

I just wanna say "thank you" for making me special even for just a short time.

Day of Freedom...

I thought it will be hard for me to forget it.. That particular day....
September 3, 2007...

That afternoon, I talk to him trying to fix something.
I approached him nicely. But I never imagined what he said. "what is your decision?"

Im trying to figure out what he is pointing on.
He said, "Im sorry but I'm not good for you. Your trying me to change but still it's hard for me to do it. I am waiting what will be your decision."

I was shocked! I quickly decide. "ok, I think you want it so I will give it to you. I am expecting that we will still be friends?"

"Ok, we should celebrate this."
I smile and trying to hide what I feel that time. I just said, "I should go home now."