LiviNg aLOne...

Have you wake up in the morning finding yourself that your alone in your house?

Have you eat your breakfast without someone you can share with?

Are you deaf with silence?

Or did you feel the emptiness in your heart?

Is living by yourself makes your life bright, exciting and happy?

Life is cruel. We experienced different things as days goes by. Develop something as our travel continues to flow. We may not get easily what we want but we can achieve it in some directions and in the right time. Obstacles made us more stronger and develop our fighting spirit. But did you think w3e can make it by our own self?

For me, NO! The world is so big for us to meet people, meet friends. We cannot live by our own.

Our life will be dark without the people around us. The people who is special to us and in our heart. Life will be easy to manage because of them, inspiring us to give our best. Lying down without no one you can talk to and lean on is the same as sleeping forever without wanting to wake up again. Your life do not have the color, the music, excitement and happiness. Can you imagine? Your doing something just for yourself. But if you get waht you desired for, would it make you the happiest person in the world? Oh! Come on.. You will be haooy but you can really feel that there's something missing. A part of you that maybe stolen from you or is temporary missing. Living alone is miserable. It is much like a prisoner on your own jail.

It's our choice and we have a lot of chance to do it. Just remember, "No man is an island"

So, don't live by yourself. Live also for others.

coPing uP..

In my life, I experienced something that I can't easily forget. It is like a tattoo on my body that until now, I can't cope up. It is loving a person who loves you before but now, it seems that you are nothing to him. Loving someone can cause you to sacrifice everything. That person is the only person who made me cry hard. I thought I am strong enough to face the reality but, I am wrong.

Everytime I look at that person, I think I am facing the biggest regret im my life. I try to hide my feelings but I am not good in it. A lot of my friends told me that he is not deserve for my tears. But they just don't understand me. It's very hard for me to accept the fact that it just end up like that. But the most painful for me is when he easily found a new one to replace me. It seems that he got an amnesia and forgot everything. I thought I can easily get over him but as days goes by it grows deeper. I try to ignore his presence but still I can't pretend. Everytime his around, I can't control myself not to give a glimpse to him. I know that I can't back the past but I just hope that atleast we will be friends after all that happened between the two of us.a

How many times I try to smile at him when we cross paths but I can feel his coldness. His actions are telling me that he don't need me or even just a single friendship.

Until now, everytime I see him, I just end up staring at him. Im just trying to ignore and continue mylife without him.

Now, I can say that Im getting used to it. We do have a different lives now. He can do what he want and I can do what I want.

Maybe, our friendship cannot be brought back again. But still I am hoping because friendship really means a lot to me.

I just wanna say "thank you" for making me special even for just a short time.

Day of Freedom...

I thought it will be hard for me to forget it.. That particular day....
September 3, 2007...

That afternoon, I talk to him trying to fix something.
I approached him nicely. But I never imagined what he said. "what is your decision?"

Im trying to figure out what he is pointing on.
He said, "Im sorry but I'm not good for you. Your trying me to change but still it's hard for me to do it. I am waiting what will be your decision."

I was shocked! I quickly decide. "ok, I think you want it so I will give it to you. I am expecting that we will still be friends?"

"Ok, we should celebrate this."
I smile and trying to hide what I feel that time. I just said, "I should go home now."